Sovereign God

"You can make many plans, but the Lord's purpose will prevail" (Proverbs 19:21 NLT).

In studying the history of the church the idea of this verse always enters my mind and by learning more about what happened before I can assuredly say that this verse has been truthful before and even now. By the lives of the church fathers I've verified that whatever the steps that man took and will take, God will always cause these steps to result to good so that His purpose will prevail.

I experienced and still experiencing many circumstances in my life that I've seen as the consequences of the unwise decisions of my love ones. Many times I found myself feeling all the pain because of these circumstances. There are times that I questioned God during those pains. "Why me Lord?" "Why you have given me such family?" "Why it seems for others that all is well and I am always bearing all these pains?" You might realized by reading these questions that I am bitter. And yes! I was and experienced a bitter heart and I tell you it was not good because I always found myself groping for the hand of God because of the loneliness that I was into. It did not help me with my situation and it also negatively affected the people in my lives especially those that were around me during those bitter times. But through these times I can testify that God did not stop His faithfulness towards me. I experienced His irresistable grace that no matter how many times I pushed Him away He never stopped embracing me with His arms to bring me comfort and He never left me helpless even though I felt I was. Indeed, He is always a present help in times of needs. He sent people to help me process and recover from my situation. And after these tearful moments  I found myself restored in the hand of God and seeing how His purposes prevailed even with the steps and decisions that I and my family made. He allowed these to happen and worked it together for my good and to mold and prepare me for the calling that He has given to me.

Not long after those times I found myself being exposed with people who are experiencing the same situations that I had. And I praised God because He had used me to be a vessel of comfort and help to them because I can feel and understand what they are going through deep in their hearts. Now, I always pray to God to help me and make me to be a person who always trusts in Him during those kind of times knowing that He hold everything in His hand. And always be reminded that I don't need to understand everything along the process of molding knowing that He will always direct my steps.

"The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way" (Proverbs 20:24 NLT).